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More difficult this time…

16 Sep

I’m finding that this whole being out of work thing is more difficult than the last time, and I am also finding that after the initial positivity I had, that positive thinking is dwindling down to very little. And I know I cannot get too negative, as it has only been 2.5 weeks and I have lots of options. At this point, I am hoping to be eligible for unemployment benefits, but only for a little while so I can save up some money while still looking for work and considering other options. But I also know that I cannot depend on even getting these benefits. I have to not be too negative, but at the same time, I know I have to be realistic as well. I am beyond grateful to have the parents that I do (I’m an only child), and the friends that I have as well, or this whole situation would be incredibly lonely.

At the same time, I am also finding that my writing muse is coming back a bit. I am also finding that reconnecting with an old friend whose writing opinion I have always valued has ignited the muse too. For the first time, I have been showing the novel to someone. This friend has been critiquing it seriously and giving some really excellent advice. I am discovering through her that this project might just actually amount to something someday and I am finding that that kind of excites me. I’ve been writing since I was 7 years old (and I am 28 now) and have never had “the” project that I thought would do something. Until the past two years.

In the past two years, I have created the best characters that I have ever come up with, and have finally created a start of a plot that actually makes sense. I still don’t quite know how to make it have a true beginning, middle, and end yet, but I suddenly know that I will get there!

I also need to dive back in to my four simple goals. The cooking part may not really take effect until I move, but the blogging, writing, and taking time to knit or something else needs to really take some shape in my life, regardless of what happens work wise.

So here’s to plugging along and positivity, and here’s to hoping I can get my apartment packed up quickly…I hate packing! Argh.

Really taking time to blog…

3 Sep

Slowly, but surely. This past week has been very rough personally. I was let go from my job on Monday and it really threw me for a loop. I’ve tossed myself back into the fray and am actively looking for a new job, but at the same time, I am also looking into going back to school. It’s something I’ve been thinking about for awhile, but never seriously–until now. I have two appointments with school counselors next week and I think I am really excited about it–at least for the possibilities. What scares me is that I am moving home with my parents for awhile to save up some money and to lessen my worries about rent for my apartment. I think I have finally come to the conclusion that this is the best thing for me right now. My parents have been such a great support this week (not that they aren’t every day anyway!) and I have found that I have some amazing friends for support, including some excellent now former co-workers who I now CAN call friends.

In a way, I now think I can write Ryan’s story a little better. He had the rug pulled out from under him with his job and career and I sort of know how he feels. And the last few days I have really dug back into the writing challenge I participate in. I have been doing well with it anyway, but it’s been a bit halfhearted. Now I am diving back into it with a new spirit. I changed up (visually) some of the characters and think their new portrayers fit the characters much, much better. I’ve also created a music mix to kind of definite Ava and Ryan’s relationship, and I plan to make a Lily one, a solo Ryan one, and a Ava/Nathan friendship one.

In the past two days, I’ve written about 1000 words on Spotlight and it really made me feel good about it again. I’ve got a huge paper easel on my wall right now with a list of scenes to write, the album and song titles on Lily, Ryan, AND Nathan’s records, and my character list. Things WILL be accomplished…and I have a really renewed attitude about it all.

And really, maybe not working right now is good in a way. Maybe I was unhappy there…maybe it just wasn’t right…and maybe, just maybe, I’m not doing what I am supposed to be doing. At least not yet, anyway. I will find it eventually, this I know. My mantra right now, to quote Dory in Finding Nemo is “Just keep swimming!” Haha. I will write, and I will dive into this blogging thing and not just make it about my writing, but about music and sports and crafts.

Which brings me to a new link I added to my blogroll. A good friend and her partner have a fantastic Etsy jewelry shop, called The Curious Cupcake. I have several pairs of earrings and two necklaces from these lovely ladies, and the other half of that partnership is Angela. She has started a blog of her own to help talk about the shop and life and things. I added the link to her blog, and am putting it here as well:The Curious Cupcake Blog.

So here’s to diving back in to life as it comes, and enjoying the little things that I can control, and dealing with those things that I cannot control. And here’s also to diving back into my four simple goals from a couple of weeks back. =)

4 Simple Goals

16 Aug

Taking a lovely idea from the lovely Elsie Flannigan over at A Beautiful Mess. She’s blogging four simple goals for the rest of 2010. I couldn’t help but be inspired to come up with four of my own.

1. Blog at least three times a week. Whether it is here or on LJ…find something to write about!

2. Write one full scene for In The Spotlight (the novel) per week. There is a list already started…let’s get those written and involved in the plot!

3. Cook more. I want to have more healthy meals going on.

4. Set aside more time for yourself! Whether it is to knit or write or create new playlists…ensure you are having fun again!