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Really taking time to blog…

3 Sep

Slowly, but surely. This past week has been very rough personally. I was let go from my job on Monday and it really threw me for a loop. I’ve tossed myself back into the fray and am actively looking for a new job, but at the same time, I am also looking into going back to school. It’s something I’ve been thinking about for awhile, but never seriously–until now. I have two appointments with school counselors next week and I think I am really excited about it–at least for the possibilities. What scares me is that I am moving home with my parents for awhile to save up some money and to lessen my worries about rent for my apartment. I think I have finally come to the conclusion that this is the best thing for me right now. My parents have been such a great support this week (not that they aren’t every day anyway!) and I have found that I have some amazing friends for support, including some excellent now former co-workers who I now CAN call friends.

In a way, I now think I can write Ryan’s story a little better. He had the rug pulled out from under him with his job and career and I sort of know how he feels. And the last few days I have really dug back into the writing challenge I participate in. I have been doing well with it anyway, but it’s been a bit halfhearted. Now I am diving back into it with a new spirit. I changed up (visually) some of the characters and think their new portrayers fit the characters much, much better. I’ve also created a music mix to kind of definite Ava and Ryan’s relationship, and I plan to make a Lily one, a solo Ryan one, and a Ava/Nathan friendship one.

In the past two days, I’ve written about 1000 words on Spotlight and it really made me feel good about it again. I’ve got a huge paper easel on my wall right now with a list of scenes to write, the album and song titles on Lily, Ryan, AND Nathan’s records, and my character list. Things WILL be accomplished…and I have a really renewed attitude about it all.

And really, maybe not working right now is good in a way. Maybe I was unhappy there…maybe it just wasn’t right…and maybe, just maybe, I’m not doing what I am supposed to be doing. At least not yet, anyway. I will find it eventually, this I know. My mantra right now, to quote Dory in Finding Nemo is “Just keep swimming!” Haha. I will write, and I will dive into this blogging thing and not just make it about my writing, but about music and sports and crafts.

Which brings me to a new link I added to my blogroll. A good friend and her partner have a fantastic Etsy jewelry shop, called The Curious Cupcake. I have several pairs of earrings and two necklaces from these lovely ladies, and the other half of that partnership is Angela. She has started a blog of her own to help talk about the shop and life and things. I added the link to her blog, and am putting it here as well:The Curious Cupcake Blog.

So here’s to diving back in to life as it comes, and enjoying the little things that I can control, and dealing with those things that I cannot control. And here’s also to diving back into my four simple goals from a couple of weeks back. =)

hitting roadblocks

20 Jan

I’m finding this year’s writing challenge much more difficult than last year’s. I’m suddenly finding myself stuck in fits of writer’s block, despite having tons of scene and dialogue ideas floating through my head at any given moment.

It’s like I know what I need to be doing, but I don’t know how to get it there. I went to the bookstore a couple of weeks ago and bought a new writing book/guide, called Book In A Month. Of course, I don’t plan on writing a book in a month, but I thought I could take some of the lessons out of it and seeing how I can apply it to this 100k challenge. I have got to get somewhere on this challenge, and I feel sometimes like I am already failing miserably. Last year it was so easy…I could write anything I wanted. I could putter on the novel, work on a fic for a series I’ve been working on for the last two years, or anything I wanted to. Now I have to stick to one project, and I’m rather ashamed to say it’s breaking my spirit a bit. I’m writing every day on In The Spotlight, but I feel at this point that it’s nothing substantial…just little bits and pieces.

But I will prevail. I will stick to this challenge, and to quote the fantastic that is Tim Gunn from Project Runway, I will “make it work”. Haha.

If I can get through the character chart at least once, I think I can do this thing. Once I settle into the whole idea of bringing Spotlight to a true beginning, middle, and end, I will be in a much better spot.

I think my problem right now is that my brain flickers from idea to idea, and I can never settle into one thought to write it out before moving on.  I vow to work on that this year too…as part of the challenge.

Meanwhile, as I’ve been struggling to write something decent, I’ve been working on putting together a better writing playlist on my iPod. I think I finally have a good mix. I have a very eclectic taste in music, from country to rock to alternative to classical to soundtracks. It’s nice to have different tunes that both motivate and inspire. My playlist goes from Keith Urban to John Mayer to selections from Glee to Lady Antebellum and Train to Michael Buble and Josh Groban. Color me eclectic…really. My songs of choice at the moment are “Sara Smile” by Jimmy Wayne, “Need You Now” and “American Honey” by Lady Antebellum, and “‘Til Summer Comes Around” by Keith Urban. All motivating songs for me right now.

Back to actual writing now. I have this tiny little scene in my brain that has stuck with me all day and at this point, if I don’t at least flesh it out a bit, I will be failing for the day. heh.